Fragile Heart

Dear heart,

Can we still hold on?

It's Papa's birthday. :)

Today, we also had the result of our Medical Check-up. Sadly, I've been diagnosed with acute coronary disease. There's really something wrong with my heart. The doctor said that I have to observe myself and I have to take some meds.

Sure, I'm not fine. But I guess I'm okay. I felt weak and it was scary for a moment but I don't know.

I don't know anymore. 

I just want to open this bottle of water but I can't.

Dang. I don't have the energy to open it. I can't force myself because I felt really weak. 

I was alone earlier and so I just cried. I let the tears to fall down. But it was so quick because there were students and I don't want them to see me crying.