Comfort Room✨

My Mama and my twin sister always ask me why do I take too much time in our comfort room. They always notice that I spend too much time there. 

And I actually don't give them answers, I just smile then leave everytime they ask me.

But here's the truth, I take too much inside our comfort room because I was crying there. I was hardly but silently crying there.

Do you know how hard that is?

I'm punching my chest because my heart feels heavy. My eyes really hurts because of my flowing tears. I really wanted to scream but I must not.

So I just comfort myself there. I talk to myself. I question myself. I argue with myself. I reflect on myself. I pray to God. And I hug myself. 

And I have to calm myself first before I get out. I have to pretend like nothing happened. I have to pretend that I'm okay. My eyes should be okay because I don't want them to notice that I cried. 😿

I don't know why I'm experiencing this but I've been feeling that lately. 💔

All I know is that I'm going to be okay. Maybe I have to suffer for now but I also know that this will just get me stronger. ♡

I hope to feel better soon. ♡♡

Help me Lord. I know you're always by my side. Heal me. Thank you so much. I love you. ♡