Poem♡

FLUENT IN SILENCE

I’m living in silence
And for them it doesn’t make sense
Because I experienced downheartedness
It brought me into a mess.

I always heard silence
And for me, it always makes sense
My whole world is crooning
But still my words are muffing.

The silence of the uncommonly green
Are the words that weirdly unseen
Others might know nothing
But I have a loud mind as a human being.

I am usually fluent in silence
And it’s unusual if I break the silence
I am usually alone and voiceless
It’s just hard to find the right words to express.

I’m afraid to speak and talk
Sometimes I just want to go and walk
Away from the world of noise
Unwilling to use my voice.

I’m also not fancied of having so much fun
Maybe because I always want to run
Away from all the hurt and pain
Just like the hard fall of rain.

Indeed, they get me wrong
As the hurt took for so long
The reason I became fluent
Is because I received a disappointment.

The way I look is not the way you see
And I don’t want what you want me to be
My outside smiling is my inside crying
Now, I don’t know how to keep on trying.

But I have the reason to be strong
Because I have my pal named, “Song”
Silence doesn’t make me suffer
Because it is my kind of healer.

Even though I speak in soundless
It always brings me happiness.
So I’m sorry for being me
It's just hard to be someone like me.

The reason why I'm like this
Is to find my peace. 
I know I’m not better
But I know better writing this letter.

Not all silent persons will remain their silence
I am one of them who gain the confidence.
Through the abundance of real bravery
Trained in the grasslands of camaraderie.